Some 'about me' detail is perhaps appropriate.
So here goes…
I don't fit the entrepreneur stereotype.
Confidence has never been a strong point of mine, and for too long I've been ashamed about my lack of some of the usual and expected characteristics.
That I'm not particularly 'dynamic, focused, ambitious, assertive, money-oriented' is something about which I'm still more than a little uncomfortable, but am learning to live with.
With a lot of time spent watching the river flow rather than building bridges, I don't have a stellar career. (And do have a big self-destruct/reset button, which has been frequently activated in bouts of 'de-railing cos it's chaos in my head'.)
Silly though it may sound, I really am into 'doing business naturally and honorably, with open passion and emotion… replacing selfishness and competition with generosity, compassion, and interdependence'.
Choosing to do things in an informal, relaxed, and non-pushy way… I'm not a rough'n'tough 'un. Probably a bit of a sissy.
That 'sleep-is-for-the-weak, respect-only-force, struttin'-around-like-Captain-Invincible horse-in-my-shorts testosterone-overload alpha-male-macho-bullshit-trip' nonsense is anathema to me.
So if you're one of those powerhouse-types we're probably not right for each other. You're of course welcome here, but please don't expect me to be like you.
I'm a willing exile, a renegade, from the 'men in neckties' brigade… and searching for something different than the usual hustle-hustle-hype of the 'leaders in our field' shenanigans.
So yeah… 'i am meek and warm and soft to the touch'.
Castaneda readers might suggest this a natural part of the 'warrior's battle against self-importance of the ego'. Others may simply consider it stupidity.
Whatever. Idealistic nonsense though it may be, I'm simply suggesting 'modest and self-effacing' is a viable alternative to the 'be powerful and dominant' ethos… and that 'gentleness and respect, not might' is, to me, a far better way of conducting my activities.
My health is an issue, but not an insurmountable obstacle.
Also relevant is this…
'Stop. Start again.'
In recent years things have been less than ideal.
With poor health and some even-poorer business decisions, it's been a commercially-flat and frustrating period of false starts and premature ends featuring various this-way-thatta-way direction changes to no great result.
Long-story-short is that I burned out, lost interest in business, and should have stayed even further away from things than I did.
'That's life, move on…' with things now settled I'm back on course again.
I don't want power. And, beyond covering my modest needs and wants, I really don't give a sh*t about money.
Anyway, that's me.